i am a self-sustaining entity.

Monday, April 02, 2007

i love you and i thank God for you. i live every second of every day now thinking how blessed and lucky i am to have you.

everything about you is what i wanna be. that's bliss.

Penny and i spend so much time together now that i've graduated and am working, awaiting impending doom in the form of NS. but she's more than just a bass guitar for me. she is me personified in the form of an instrument. you really realise how close you are to your bass when you realise that you are watching soccer and fretting it subconsciously. and that every moment you're apart from it, you think about the fun you're gonna have with it once you reach home.

it feels like puppy love all over again. blind, unconditional, innocent and genuine. it's a second virginity for me = P

and i recall the last jamming session with Lucid Dream. where we had 2 different groups of close to ten folks packed outside the studio trying to catch the glimpse of the band conjuring such a sonic wall of sound. and the shocked reaction one of them had when they realised there was only 3 members in the band. it's an honor for the band foremost, and for me....

and i think it all boils down to the techniques i use in that circumstance. specifically the bass fret-tapping i improvised because the band lacked a keyboardist and subsequent synthesizer. it's really easy to do, and so fucking showy i feel guilty displaying it.

of course, a normal bass cannot project that quality. only my Penny can.

and the way they expressed their appreciation in the form of gasps and oh-my-gods when we stepped out. it's funny how i've always clamoured for adulation, but shy away completely when i'm supposed to bask in it. sim implied that since i've impressed malays, there must be a certain degree of skill i must possess. i'm just shy.

cos i'm nothing without the band.

in Lucid Dream, showmanship is not a commodity; it's a prerequisite. we live to entertain. we live for the stage.

sammy says. at 1:39 AM