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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Haste makes waste

much as i know about its definition as is the most appropriate way to apply this statement, i finally have to admit that it has caught up with me.

and nothing makes more sense than the subject of love.

sound the alarms, blare the trumpets, scream and shout, play the eagle-eyed cherry song for the umpteenth time. there's no denying it's a good feeling for me. cos i feel like sec 3 all over again.

my current outlook on life is largely detrimental to any chances of emotional growth. i'm still riding on the 21st birthday maturity boom. drive, desire and the innate need to 'make it' coarse through my veins as i attempt to establish something concrete and profit churning before i begin my PES C1L9 stint in NS.

but i have to stop and think. what do i want all this success for when i do attain it? will i really enjoy it alone? all by myself?

and then the answer instanteneously becomes crystal clear. or rather the question. "with whom do i share it with". lest i confuse you, i'm not talking about marriage for crying out loud. a girlfriend. duh.

so i've decided to put aside my mantra, my discipline, my code of conduct, and simply let nature take its course. solely regarding this matter. cos you cant procrastinate when it comes to making money haha. and conversely, you cant hurry love. you simply just have to wait.

so i'd wait.

sammy says. at 12:38 AM