Thursday, February 16, 2006
utter and complete shock. turns to confounding confusion. turns to eye blurring anger. turns to a feeling of crestfallen.
after the shock settles, the confusion sets in.
crestfallen. meaning dispirited and depressed. such a beautiful word conveying such a morbid message. unfortunately, being crestfallen is an understatement to what i feel now.
it is raining in my heart. for all i've done right, i must have deserved something. something that does not necessarily has to be right. no i'm not even asking for that. but definately not something that is not downright wrong. but unfortunately it is the case.
my feeling right now? disappointment.
i am disappointed.
i admit sometimes my best isin't good enough. but i never could forsee the punishment. no not at all.
right now this pain in my heart. its coarsing through my veins. i feel like i'm pierced all over my body. my skin is virtually stretched and torn. my will is crushed. but most unfortunately, i have not died yet. i'm still going through this pain. every second. every breath that i take.
that is the feeling i'm going through now. for your reckless abandon again i pay the price.
sammy says. at 11:47 AM
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